That Time I was Cat Woman (kinda)

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Yes, it’s me, I’m back with many many things to share with you all. Let’s rewind ourselves back to January when it was still winter…OOPS ITS STILL COLD AND WINTRY so you shouldn’t have to go back too too far.

Anyways, here’s that time I was Cat Woman at the Cheesecake Factory in Maryland. I’m not sure if I had been feeling down in the dumps or not, there had been a lot of that around that time but I am better now lol. So when Nyiah (bestie /roomie/ sister) and I are bored and or hungry, which is all day everyday, we like to get cute and treat ourselves to a nice meal or two. The getting cute obviously boosts confidence and makes for an overall pleasant experience, the food is a reward for getting out of bed, leaving our darkness and putting together nice looks.

IMG_0988BAM! There it is, me serving dark Scorpio realness (see what I mean by cat woman). I bought this one piece/jumpsuit/catsuit from Fashion Nova, and I am in love with it. I feel like every woman, regardless of size or shape should own one of these at some point in her life. You can wear it with practically anything if you get it in a neutral color, and it’s super comfy!

 

IMG_0928I felt like a superSHEro wearing this, even though we only went to eat. Of course y’all know I had to get my pics because I rarely dress up for school anymore. So there I am, with my high ponytail (it’s becoming my signature style), my hoop earrings, my thigh high boots and my stretchy suit.

I’m still a bit weary of Fashion Nova’s quality, and whatnot because of a pair of jeans I received in the past year, but this is one of my favorite pieces in my closet and it wasn’t too expensive either so that’s a plus. Oh and the best part about this outfit was, after I ate, I didn’t have to unbutton my pants, or suffocate while my jeans stabbed me in my rib cage during dinner. Definitely a successful roomie date! ❤

 

 

Last Years Lessons, a Little Bit Late

Hello world, I’m back after another drought, hopefully the last one for a long long time. It took me  a few days, nine exactly, to decide what I was going to write for you all. I wasn’t sure whether to keep it light and happy, or to leave you with something that weighs heavy on your souls. I’ve decided to just let it all out and hope that I fall somewhere between the two.

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What can I possibly say about 2017? It was the best worst year of my short 21 years of life. I was happy, sad, excited, depressed, fine, heartbroken and every other emotion you can think of.  The lows outweighed the highs but that just means my brightest seasons are yet to come.  Here’s a list of things I’d like to think I learned through all my 2017 trials and triumphant tribulations.

  1. Heartbreak happens… Yes it is sad sad sad sad sad but it happens and when it does you feel like the only one who has ever gone through it. This year I experienced my first true heartbreak and let me tell you all, my body had no idea how to react. I think I cried everyday for the first three months and then off and on for three more months. I didn’t eat, or rather I couldn’t finish full meals. I’d see food and know I was hungry, but take one bite and be finished. That was the MOST sickening part of it all considering  I am a proud proud food lover. Some days I didn’t eat at all and other days I’d fill myself with useless things like candy… Since I’m usually a happy person, I don’t think my brain could tell my heart or the rest of my body what to do so on days I was crying over him, I’d cry because the unhappiness just would not stop.  But Heartbreak happens, so IF you’re a believer in real love, the happiness is always with you beneath all of the hurt and love will always find you again if you just keep loving yourself first.
  2. Never put anyone above anything. In 2017 I’ve given too many people too many chances to makes things right that they don’t even see the wrong in. I’m not just talking relationships either I mean friendships too. People seem to think I have a revolving door permanently attached to my forehead.. They talk a good game at first but a few weeks later it’s the same behavior from 2016 and I don’t have room for it in my new more positive life. It’s hard if you’re as trusting as I am, especially when you love the person but I guess we were meant to love some people from very far away.
  3. TALK IT OUT! Whatever the situation, please talk it out. I found that when I was upset the only way for me to accept it and moved on, as slowly as I did, was to talk it out with whoever I could get to listen. I think my best friend Nyiah and I talked about it all at least a hundred times and it’s the only thing that truly made me feel better. I talked so much at first to try and breath life back into things that have died away, situations that are over. To try and make sure the memories stayed alive because that was easier than letting go…Then I was talking to make sense of it all, how could someone do this to me? How could she turn her back on me? How could he leave when I needed somebody the most? Once that was all over and I realized I wouldn’t be getting answers to all of those questions, I talked to kill those thoughts. To unravel every plan I had made without God’s consent, to let go, to numb the pain, the wipe away the question marks, to feel again and to think only of myself.
  4. Self love is way harder than people act like it is. To be real with you, it’s downright difficult and I wonder why all the time. It’s easy to tell someone you love them (for me at least) whether it be a friend or a boyfriend, and it’s easy for me to show how much I do so why can’t I show myself the same love. My guess is that from the time we’re born till forever people want to make the world an amazing place by teaching you how to give and love others. Everyone forgets to mention what happens when you give your all till the very last drop. Well then your glass is empty and everyone else’s is full while you’re still out there giving out a bunch of nothing… So even though it’s hard you should take the smallest steps every single day to love yourself and fill your cup so when the time comes you can pour into someone else who needs it.
  5. HAVE FUN!!!!! Even when you feel out of control, have fun with your friends and family. The ones who are deserving of your time and effort will be there exactly when they’re supposed to. The fun doesn’t stop when people leave, because that’s really God removing them anyway. Whether or not he brings them back in your life is no deciding factor in the amount of fun you get to have without them. They have their life while you have yours and it’s up to YOU to make yours more fun each day.

giphy (5) I know that was a lot but I like to share these things as I learn them, especially if theirs anyone out there who had no idea…like me. Stay tuned for my post about the new year, and all the ways to make it a good one.

Love,

Chelsi

Stunt WITH your Growth, Don’t Stunt your Growth

I promise I’ll get better at my lack of consistent blogging one day. However exciting things are happening and I can’t wait to share them with you all! At the beginning of July I wasn’t my best self but I was on the struggle bus to unhappiness, but things are looking up, they always were. Over these few months God has shown me that He always has my best interest at heart and when He does, I always feel that its necessary to share with you.

God has removed, rearranged and reintroduced so many people into my life in these last few months its crazy. I’ve seen more inspirational posts about growth than I care to revisit in my mind. Mos of them are about cutting people off and knowing your worth, but they don’t mater until you are at a point where enough has become enough. You have to push yourself and make the move to become the happiest you for you and whoever is supposed to be around you, whoever deserves to share that happiness and feel the warmth of your sunshine will gravitate in when they’re supposed to.

  1. You mustn’t fight change. I used to hate change especially change that didn’t bring me immediate happiness. The very thought of it brings about a sadness that sometimes still lingers but I’m getting better. I saw a text post last night and it basically said that you have fall in love with change and growing, in order to progress when you feel you’ve been stuck. EMBRACE! Its way easier said than done, but I absolutely promise that when you do it you’ll feel better. You don’t have to do it all at once, it may come in waves, but you must trust that you can make yourself the happiest you. There will still be ups and downs but if you can grasp this concept it will lighten the load a bit.
  2. You ABSOLUTELY must take risks, and stop holding yourself back. For my first two years at Howard I was totally quiet and shy (I still am but in smaller doses) and was convinced that my writing wasn’t good enough to apply for internships, and my sewing wasn’t good enough to show people or get noticed. I was so so wrong. I started applying for internships in July, secured two by August and one more this week!
  3. Don’t be afraid to try things that aren’t completely on track with what you think you want to do in the future. I never thought i’d be interning for a company in the music industry. There’s always a way to expose yourself to new things while gaining experience in your own craft. I thought I had to have internships based completely on writing, and honestly those can be pretty boring… If you can connect two things that you like go for it! No regrets..
  4. Be selfish with your time, your energy, your space and your love. Don’t keep granting people access to you when they want it. One, they’ll never learn to truly value you because it seems as if you don’t value yourself. This goes for friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, partners and even family members! Yes family can be out of line too some days.

PHEW! Okay now that all of my hopefully helpful tips are out of the way here come the fun parts, unveiling my internships.

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First we have my super exciting position as a Style Guru for College Fashionista!!!! I was overjoyed when I heard back from them because as you all know (I think) the fashion world is where I hope to be in the future. Somehow I’ll make a difference in doing so and getting a foot in the door feels mighty fine. IMG_9504 SEE I’m official!

Second I’ll be interning with Live the Biz as a digital marketing intern. Yayyyyyyy for music! The entertainment industry fascinates me so I’m quite intrigued to be exposed to the culture that comes with music. Learning about new artists is always fun for me because sometimes I get tired of mainstream music, its overplayed just saying..

I know I said I had three positions, but I’d like to wait to reveal the last one it hasn’t started yet so I don’t know what I’ll be doing. Just know I’m working and growing trying to prepare myself to make the world a better place!